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Hello again
Singed again
Embraced by love
Yearned and desired
Saw you in the light
Loved this divine sight
Uniquely named and gracefully in tuned
A blessed soul
With a beautiful struggle
Smiles and joy in your presence
Seeking any position in order to participate
In the game of your life
There are seasons and there is a time for every purpose
Under heaven we were introduced
And now we meet again
Free me from the fears within
As I embrace the fall in potential of all that is
In you

Up There In Spirit

Time flies when you’re getting high
No fun in wasting your life
Take flight and soar
Transcend above the mess
Of a life less lived
Desired and yearned and now I earn
Respect, receipts, & recession free
Minds can’t fathom the greatness possessed
Wish you could take a minute of my time
When you’re not even worth your own
How on earth could you take me?
Destiny, take a seat to actuality
Dear life, please sit and relax while Spirit overcomes us all

11/09/2010

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Caused pain
Promoted growth
Opened my eyes to me
Worthy unlimited
Who are you?
To me the world
In your eyes I get confused
A desire of clarity
Understanding of what is
Addicted to love that can be so fleeting
I am supposed to love at this depth
When do I reach a point of return?
Longing for it
I dwell in these words
So accepting in my reality
As I search the city lights for you
Destined for our union
Seeing a past in this present
That, frightens truth into my heart
I'll let you live
As you were soldier
Serving the army that dies daily
While I love the light of life
Such an exchange in views
Will you see mine?

Round & Round

Wanted that way
Insecure in what's seen
Always feeling what's true
What's real
Granted sight
And it can't be taken away
Loving you forever is my hearts vow
Secured in my faith in you
This allows us to be in some space
God has allowed
Such a divine being created this love
Can it go awry?

In This Life Love Is King

Elation meets forever
Such a divine sensation
Not meant for us all to retain
But we ALL must attempt
For if not, we die alone
Without love in our hearts
The divine Being is just this:
Love undefiled unbridled
Sensational and true
Like a lie untold
Love is that, untruth weighed out and cleansed
Cleansed in truth and selflessness
Giving giving giving
Never expecting to receive
Simply because in this giving we have already received our sweet gift;
the giving of a gift
Thoughts of my deserving releases me from evils
If I am worthy I shall receive
Living as a worthy graceful soul
The God of love has been merciful
Selfless in His out pour of love upon me
Much much too good for me
Yet He has never not once not loved me
Destined an equally worthy soul
And with patience I await my moment
The moment He is preparing me for
Wishing for it is vain
So, faithfully, I work toward seizing MY END of this bond
This immaculate event of soul sharing
This compliment
Where ever it comes from, I declare, glory and praise entitled for
Jehovah, God Almighty
Keep on working on me, El Shaddai
I am ever unworthy as YOUR beloved child
And ever loving you, my dear beloved Lord

Yours truly,

Carmen Rayshelle

See This Fork I Got

See this fork I got...Pretty little silver fork in my road...leads not just one direction...but several...Got this love so sweet I can still taste it on my lips... Have this urge for fleeting freedom so deep I can feel the warm breeze on my face...Love him to death but even family love can't right these wrongs...the disappointment...the lies...Had the Father incomparable to all the world...Gone with the sweetest goodbye that pains me deeper than death itself...Even on a good day tears roll like thunder and its so unbearable I don't know how I function...How I hide it so well...Escaping my reality...Easiest temporary relief within arms reach...Unless I reached for my own arm...

12/2009

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Looking...searching...yes...this is me now...causing more pain and tears...like I don't know...better...me than you...at the expense of we...could...and should...be all that we could...should...let love...love...you are bigger than life to me...but my mistakes are always great...this could be much...for you...too much for a sane man to bear...So...please...excuse me for being me...I make the rules up as I go because I haven't mastered...Otherwise...I would be whom for which in this world you long for...No apologies...for me...but many for you.

12/2009