A lone r

Since so long ago I’ve craved and denied
I’ve loved and lost
I’ve felt and now I feel no more
Tears in the distance cause they remain
Uncried if I regain and sustain control
Unwilling to allow the searing pain of love
To return to this weak and distraught vessel
Because she exists no more
Weakened by love
Destroyed all love allowed
Pointless encounters of lust
Deserves to be held and adored
But requires so much more
Never known love to fulfill
All of those prophecies and splendor
Just a façade of this so called cherished treasure

The Answer...And...The Root Of EVIL

These last few days have been a bit hellish and unruly...I feel myself retreating to my thoughts instead of willing them to the air and scrutiny that is promised...I never said I was good enough or willing to even try but...I do...everyday. I've always been a bittersweet fountain. And really...I only wish to change the dramatics behind it...I aspire to be a not-so-bittersweet-man-made-replica-of-the-ocean. Otherwise known as a big big big deal...Maybe not to you but on some little helpless persons scale. I love the underdog and I really feel like there are not enough people fightin for us.

The funny thing is right now I am the poorest person I know and I don't feel like it. I love my life and the direction its going...because its my freakin life!!!!! And really because I realize that God has to be the center of my attention or I'll just wind up lost and losin again. Money has never satisfied me. I really just aspire for the good stuff it buys. And the stress it relieves on my bills and rent. Aside from that I know it has no real weight in my life. I encourage anyone who dares listen to my maniac like thoughts...try life with more focus on your Higher Power and less on money...see where life takes you...

Paradise Within

You are beautiful.
You just don’t believe the good you hear.
Positive thoughts!
Peace will flow within.
That voice that speaks to you is deep deep within the ravine.
There you will find paradise.

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Moments passed by me
Scared as a cat
To say the words that form my thoughts
About the love
I have to offer
The secrets I want to share
Between us
Your chocolate skin
And amazing eyes
Are worthy to receive every touch and each look
Search me because I want to be worthy of you

Living Free with Lester Sumrall

I'm reading a book called Living Free by Lester Sumrall. I wanted to share this with the people in the world like me...who drink and drug to cope...too stressed out to see life clearly...down and out with depression...I know and relate oh so well...try this... Mr. Sumrall says to make peace with stress, we must know personally the prince of peace, Jesus Christ. Makes sense??? I thought so...because Romans 5:1 and 3 says...Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance.

Now I go to m-w.com...Perseverance : the action or condition or an instance of persevering : steadfastness

Persevere: to persist in a state, enterprise, or undertaking in spite of counterinfluences, opposition, or discouragement.

Steadfastness: firm in belief, determination, or adherence

Marinate on that for a moment. Lastly...I wanted to share one last piece of encouragement...from Living Free...God's way of coping with stress is to 1.Become a believer 2.Don't worry about anything 3.Pray about everything 4.Give thanks 5.Meditate 6.Trust God 7.Honor God's laws.

I thought about this after reading it and it makes sense to me...but really we already know this as children of God...the trick is...apply it to everyday life and don't forget it. He has all the answers...so...for those mounting issues...fears...situations or whatever else the prince of darkness is stirring up in his pot...call on His power...its so much greater than our own.